Shooting and slocking

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“When you hafta shoot, shoot!  Don’t talk.”

This is sage advice from one of my favorite characters, in one of my favorite movies of all time: the incomparable Tuco, from the Good, the Bad, and the Ugly.  Tuco was wily, quick with a one-liner, and though he was talking guns with that line, it works for those of us in the movie business, too.  There’s SO much talk in our industry.  We’re walking Facebook pages.  Walking highlight reels.  We all have to act that way at times just to stave off the constant terror that we’re sinking before we’ve had a chance to swim.

Take me, for instance.  My new baby has projectile vomited on me twice in two days, and my older baby has taken to gleefully slapping me upside the head any time I attempt to change her diaper.  I have this script – this script, this damn script – that is taking up valuable real estate on my desk, and though I was hoping to shoot it next year, I have no idea how that’s actually, physically going to happen.  The never-ending frustration of applying to labs, being rejected, applying to festivals, being rejected, and applying to investors (and, needless to say, being rejected) is second only to the frustration of still not being able to fit into any of my shoes.

So, there you have it!  It’s not easy.  It’s never easy.  And for those who act like it is easy, well, those are often the people who are the most scared.  And that’s what keeps me from getting bitter: knowing that everyone is working their asses off to take that one baby step forward.  That, and my incredible sense of humor.

On a side note, I finally finished season 2 of Orange is the New Black, and now have a strong desire to go around slocking people.  That’s a fun show to binge-watch.  Almost as much fun as watching a Mexican standoff.  Blondie.  Angel Eyes.  And Tuco.

RIP, Eli Wallach.  Tuco, and so much more.



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